In my last post, I touched upon about the highs and lows of 2017. While I didn’t go into detail, I said that I experienced quite a few let downs.
Despite the obvious disappointment, those let downs have made me determined to put myself first this year. I’ve always been the type of person to put others before myself and I’m considerate to the core. Don’t get me wrong, I’m by no means perfect but I’m kind, loving, loyal and endlessly supportive.
However, I’ve found that not everyone has the same qualities. Even people who I thought were close have disappointed me. A friend recently commented that I’m “too nice” and people take advantage. She’s probably right.
Anyway, I’m putting myself first in 2018. Of course, my family are the absolute priority – that’s a given. Apart from that, I must look out for my best interests and concentrate on myself. I simply don’t have the energy or strength to focus on other people. Especially the ones who wouldn’t do the same for me.
Is it weird to feel guilty about putting yourself first? I don’t know why but I feel tremendously guilty already. Perhaps it’s because I’m so used to considering other people before me. Nevertheless, I need to stop feeling bad about it. For the sake of my sanity!
I don’t enjoy talking about negativity on my blog but at the same time, I think it’s important to understand that life isn’t all rainbows and unicorns. In this social media obsessed age, it’s easy to think that people (especially bloggers) are living these glossy, picture perfect lives. However, in reality they have knockbacks too.
Personally, I relate more to the bloggers who share their ups and downs rather than constantly showing their highlight reel. So, I hope you can understand where I’m coming from with this post! I’m all for positivity but I do believe in being realistic as well. Here’s to the next chapter!