I’m the sort of person who needs to be productive at all times. I love it and hate it. On one hand, I’m super organised, always busy and constantly thinking about my next plan. But on the other hand, I find it really difficult to take a step back, chill out and do nothing.
Sometimes I wish I could curl up in a blanket, binge watch TV shows, take naps and while the hours away. I’ve tried! But when I do it, I feel so guilty because I could be doing other things which my future self will thank me for. I know relaxing is beneficial but so is going to the gym, working on blog content, reading and researching etc.
I admit, I’m obsessed with self-improvement. It may sound boring but I prefer to commit to my goals, develop my skills and constantly improve. It’s exhausting. However, I know it will all pay off. To be truthful, I wasted a lot of my early twenties pleasing other people and doing stuff I didn’t really want to do. So now, I’m making up for it and only doing things which will benefit me.
Am I being selfish? Possibly. Even so, I’ve sacrificed so much of my time thinking about other people in the past that I can’t bring myself to do it again. This year, I started concentrating on what’s best for me and I haven’t looked back. Working on myself is probably one of the best things I’ve ever done.
Even though I do still have my moments where I worry about what other people are going to think, they are just fleeting moments. I genuinely do not have the energy to fret. After all, it’s my life and no one else’s. So if being productive and bettering myself makes me happy, then I’m going to do it. Back to the grind, it is!